About Me

My name is Vanessa Mwangala. I gave myself the name Melody and my dads First name is Steve, so i call myself Melody Stevens for fun most times. I am the first born in a family of 2, well maybe 3 but that's a story for some other day if you keep following me. I am Malawian, born and raised in Malawi by Malawian parents and i speak English and Chichewa( a predominant Malawian local language). I am a Christian, you might forget everything i might say but live with that, am a Christian. The kind that believes in Jesus Christ as the only way to God the father, and Jesus as the truth, light and life. I am a Jesus freak, one who thinks without Jesus, life is meaningless. yes, I am that one. I have all my hope and faith in Him because he has never disappointed me and i know He will never do.

My Childhood,
I wanted all the appreciation i could get from my family and i never got it. I yearned for the peace families give, and i never got it. I craved for recognition, parents ought to give and i never got it. So, i became wild at heart, searching for all this from wherever and whoever, but i got broken more than healed because I never found. Trust me, rejection hurts, but rejection hurts most when most influential people in your life are rejecting you. A little "congratulations!" after passing an exam, or "don't worry , accidents do happen after breaking a mug" are all i ever needed to make me realize am normal and worthy. Thinking you are the worst thing that ever happened to your family never helps either.

MY College years,
So, i graduated from College this June,2012, pretty quick i know but it had to be this way. This is where i got to know that, the world would never give me the satisfaction and completion I needed but someone or something could. i realized  there is a hole in everybody's heart which family ought to fill in, and when it doesn't, everybody goes on a search for what will, and others search in drug and alcohol abuse, others search in girl/boy relationships, others search in money and well all sorts of other immoralities you might think of. but, these break us more, when the consequences of drugs start showing, everybody can easily see how vulnerable we are, when boy/girl relationships fail, we are even more vulnerable, when we can't get money, our vulnerability is so clear, so see, what am talking about? the world just can't fill us up and complete us.
I know what can fill us, and it is a person, no, it is God, i should say He is fully Human and fully God, read John 1. He is the reason I am found here, in Camden, today and He is who defines my life. this blog is simply to share, how Gods grace has been at work in my life, since the day i departed from Malawi and landed in America. stay with me:)