BYE AMERICA: The End of the Beginning

At a place and a time when everything was about me, I saw a brighter path I instantly lusted. More of course to shine so bright that the world notices me. Yeah! in my fight for identity, everything that looked like a path of greatness for me, was gladly taken. Little did I know, I was starting a journey that would change my life forever.

Gladly I left the life I have always known eager to live a life I have always coveted. In my mother tongue we say "ziliko nkulinga utatosako" meaning "to know if there is something put your hand in". After a month or two, I knew this wasn't the life I would love to live. Immediately, I was thankful for a chance to experience it but looking forward to going back home. It took God getting me out of Malawi , to make me appreciate Malawi.

My first lesson was boasting in God. In Malawi, I have always been proud of what I have, because I know I have more than a lot of others but here my more was literary less. I had nothing in comparison to what people own and earn. Yet in my despair God reminded me I had HIM, and like Paul said, it is written: "Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord."  That became my God is enough moment.

Second lesson became dying to myself. Luke 9:23, And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. This has been the hardest one, and like Paul said that he died daily, that became my prayer. I had to die to self so that I love and serve the people around me without grumbling, even those that seemed to be unlovable. I had to die to self to live in peace and harmony with my friends, I had to die to self to pass on the worldly pleasures this place offers day after day that my heart always want to take part in. 

My  third lesson was Surrender. It actually came with dying to self.  Philippians 2:5-8 says "Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross." I did not know how much I was still controlling my life until God made me stop and listen. He opened my life to me and I was amazed at the many places in my life I deny God in. It was sad to know I had been lying to myself thinking I had surrendered and it was time for TRUE SURRENDER.

The last lesson I will share was God giving me the ability to look at people through His eyes. They are made in His image, and were created for a purpose. We are Gods plan to make it known to the world that He is good.

At the moment of my surrender, God opened my eyes to what He has set for my life. He entrusted me with a vision that I have always had yet this time I realized  it wasn't me being good that I was so passionate for abused girls, rather, God wanted to reach them through me. He opened my mind to possible ways how, and He gave me the financial, physical, emotional support I needed to start. I have faith God will bring to completion what He has began, I am ready to go to Malawi and start an abused girls project. It will be launched this August and I call it VOICES AWAKE: Equipping Girls For Change. Like my page on Facebook.

Sadly, I say bye to America, and gladly, I say welcome me back Malawi. This is the end of the beginning, its now time for the real deal.

                                           outside the white house
                                 

a letter from one of my favorite kids.